Man, I do have a lot on my mind and I figure what better way to deal with it than to put it all out there for everyone to read :D So, let's start with this. It really sucks not having a car and having to rely on others to get us to important things and just not being able to get where we want to go when we want to go. It sucks not getting my daughter to very important doctor appointments because we just don't have a way to get her there (they are all the way in St. Louis). It really sucks to be a part of a business that I believe in but no one else really does. Not to say there aren't those that don't believe in it, but there aren't a lot of people around here left to discuss the business with....and those that are available pretty much come from the, it cost too much realm, which I completely understand. I love this time of year, but it brings up a lot of memories for me, not great ones, so sometimes it's difficult to manage through. I am also missing my grandma the past couple of days which also sucks. It also sucks to be so full of something that you want to share with the world and people just look at you like they cannot believe you could do anything that you are saying you are going to do. You know what else sucks, in-laws that undermind parenting and try to turn children against their parents. There, now I have all that ick out. I know, you are like...um, hello?? Where's positive Patty? Well, negative Nancy got a turn and no Positive Patty gets a turn. While it is true that we don't have a car, no way to get a car, and Brennah has several very important appointments in St. Louis, we are grateful that we have had a few people really step up to help us out and get us places we need to get. It has worked out for the most part when it really needed to. It can be difficult in these times to trust that it will work out, but what else can I do? I have to believe that it will, and I do. Otherwise I think that anxiety would definitely take over. I am grateful that people love us and want to help us. We aren't always deserving of that love, but people do it anyway and that is amazing. Now, the business issue. Juice Plus is a fabulous nutricuticle and it is making a huge impact in millions of lives around the world. The people involved in this business truly care about people and their health and genuinely want to help people how important our health is. It is more important than movies, soda, ice cream, pizza, sporting events, even shopping trips (gasp)!! Prevention of disease is becoming the most cost effective health care plan and the use of Juice Plus (fruits and veggies in a capsule or gummy form) has proven to do for your body exactly what the huge amount of servings fruits and vegetables we need to consume everyday does. It is AMAZING to be a part of a company that cares about people so much. Not only that but I am grateful to be associated with a group of people that care so much about other people....genuinely and sincerely care. People will make room for what is most important to them in their lives and it is just awesome to be in a group of people that make health, nutrition and fitness a priority in their lives. Now to tackle the next issue. Abuse sucks and it leaves an inprint on the lives of the victims/survivors for the rest of their lives. For some vicitims it destroys their lives from the inside out. I have chosen to not take that dark road. I lived in that darkness for a long time and I choose to live. I want more from life than the flashbacks, the hurt, the pain, and the just plain ugliness that abuse leaves in the lives of those it effects. I am grateful to have the choice to move beyond that. The pain is there and the flashbacks come sometimes, but I will tell you, going to the happy parts of life and the lovely memories that I have make the pain and flashbacks fade. Reflecting on the loving wife I have and the loving daughter I am so blessed to have in my life just makes the rest pale. My grandmother was a lovely woman and I lost her in April. She was funny and spunky and elegant, a great dancer with legs to die for. Plus, she was a great woman. I am a better person for having had her in my life. That is what I choose when the sad times come...to remember the impact she had in my life and the things about me that are similar to her.....not that I have legs to die for :P Now, as far as people looking at me and second guessing my abilities to do anything, I will say this....I can do anything I set my mind to. My momma and daddy told me so...and I believe them...so there!!! Last but not least, my inlaws. People would cringe if they knew half of what we went through with them. Some think they are great people....and I will grit my teeth and say they have good attributes. Their actions have an effect on my family though and when it is a negative effect it really pisses me off. However, I refuse to give them power in my life. They have NO rights within my family. We may not be a family in their eyes, but we are and they can just bite it if they don't like it, LOL...hahahaha!! I am grateful to them for showing my Sarah and myself that we have the strength to get through anything and I wish them love and good things. See, I can be grateful for anything. SO.....remember, if you are having a bad day or some bad days in a row, that is perfectly normal and fine. BUT,....it is important to try to find some positive out of every situation. My positive statement for today: I am strong and capable and can handle anything that comes my way : ) PS...I put the pic up there for Domestic Violence Awareness....STOP it!!