I am grateful for a space to write my thoughts. I love being able to just share parts of my life and putting it out there for others to read. This is not a sarcastic statement, I am telling the truth. Many times I have thought about doing a blog and then I would think; well, who would really give a damn? Or, why should anyone care what I have to say? Or, even better, (this negative self talk used to plague my brain) isn't it quite arrogant to think anyone else gives a crap about what you have to say. Then, I started this journey. This journey hasn't been about just losing weight. It is more than that. The weight is the most visible thing to others, but there is so much more. I have said this throughout my blog, but my life was one big black hole and my pathway out of that could be the light and the beginning of someone else's pathway. I am in no way through with my journey as life is a constant journey of learning, living, changing and improving. But, I have managed to deal with some heavy things and to cast off some weight and move forward and I am indebted to share that with people. I could use the negative self talk and the fears as excuses to not share my journey with other people but I have a duty to share. More than that, I want to share. I am a born helper. I am pretty sure I always have been. There are certain areas of work that are "helper" jobs: Teachers, police, firemen, emt, paramedic, nurse, doctor, social worker, therapist, counselor are areas, just to name a few, that are "helper" jobs. These are the jobs I thought I belonged in. I have already tried to belong in a couple of those. However, due to past incidence, it is not in my best interest to participate in these jobs. So, I thought, what can I do? Then I began this journey and door after door opened up and the answer was revealed. I can motivate and inspire people. I can help people see that although their past was ugly and awful, your present and future do not have to be. Everyone has the strength within them to move forward and create the life they wish to have and I want my job to be to show people that. Some of you knew me in high school or before and have absolutely no idea what life was like for me after that (unless of course you believe all those small town rumors ; ) but it got pretty awful. Some of you met me in the midst of all that and some of you have met me only since I started this new journey. I am the same, but I have changed my way of thinking, I have changed my life. I have created the life I want to live in and continue to create that life by moving forward and focussing only on the positives. I want to challenge you to begin your day in a positive way. When you wake up, let the first thought in your head be, I am grateful I woke up. When you move to put your feet on the floor, be grateful that you have a floor to put them on and a roof to cover your head. You must find happiness and gratefulness in all things, no matter the situation. I know, believe me when I say, I KNOW it is not easy to do. But, if everything were easy, then everyone would be doing it. Make the decision for you, for your loved ones and choose your life. Love yourself enough to be grateful for you. Love. <3
YES YES YES. So proud and happy for you and you know that I firmly believe in this way of thinking. My day started off AWFUL...but all the way back home this morning I repeated "it will get taken care of...do not panic....it will be fine" and it was. WHEW. xo
If you choose to let things get you down, it will spiral. It is a hard thing to learn, but once you get it...well it works.
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Your Cousin, M
11/10/2011 06:07:41 am
You know 'Cuz, life for me has just been down-right crappy this last few months. It has not been so easy to stay positive...in fact just today, I ran out of gas (in the middle of nowhere) on the way home. However, in spite of it, some fun and laughing moments happened today.
It is a good reminder to be happy for what you have and not be sad for what you don't. ;-)
Thanks and I love you.
~M.
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My name is Melissa. I live in small town middle America with my awesome and loving partner and our beautiful daughter.