Some of you may not know how big of an Eminem fan I am, but I love him. I know I know, I'm not being a good feminist by liking him but I admire his willingness to put ALL of his demons out for the world to see while he works through them in a very creative way. Any way, that quote at the beginning is from one of his tracks. How many times have you said or heard someone else say, "I don't care what anyone thinks, I'm doing me and that is all that matters." (not in those exact words maybe, but along those same lines). The truth of that statement is, "I care what people think, but I'm going to pretend I'm tough as nails so they can't hurt me anymore than I have already been hurt." Everyone cares. Anyone that says they don't is either not being honest with themselves or is delusional. It is important to love yourself and be proud of who you are. You have to live with you everyday and you have to look yourself in the mirror, so it is most important to be able to do that with your head held high and a smile on your face with a grateful heart! Now, I'm going to put some of my own garbage out there for everyone to see and work through it on this "creative" blog : )
I want people to like me. I want people to be pleased if they take a class with me and I want people to get what they are expecting when they are around me. I want to be as good as those around me. I am definitely a people pleaser. I have been for as long as I can remember. There is a fine line here though. If I cross that line, I lose myself in trying to be what everyone else wants or needs me to be. So, what can I do? Here it is: I can be grateful for the gifts I have; I can do whatever is necessary to make myself better each day than the day before; I can ask for feedback so that I make sure that my friends, family, and fellow gym rats are getting what they need from me; I can REFRAIN from comparing myself to those around me and be grateful that I am different and have other gifts. When I try to be someone else or obsess about if "they" like this, or if "this" is what "they" want, I am not being true to myself.
So, I will be grateful for my own talents and be grateful for the opportunities that I have and do the best with them that I possibly can. When I get feedback I will be grateful for the positive and negative and learn from them and grow. I am good. I mean you don't lose 110lbs and not learn something about how to be healthy and fit. No, I haven't done it for 20 years but I am surrounded by those who have experience and are willing to help and offer advice whenever needed. I am grateful for that. I am grateful to be me and I am so very grateful for my life and the second chance I have to live life beautifully. We all have a choices. We all have to challenge those negative thoughts and dwell on the positives. We have life and what a beautiful gift that is. We also have opportunity, because we get to decide each day how we will live. I want to live open, free, grateful and constantly learning and bettering myself and the world around me. What do you need to challenge yourself with today? Think about it. Change your own life, don't wait for someone else to do it because that is your job, not theirs. Your feelings about YOU, are up to YOU!! <3