I have decided to write a book. It is going to be a book about survival and thriving and gratitude. I used to think maybe I needed to write a survivor memoir. Now, I don't want to focus anything on the past, unless of course I am drawing lessons from it. Our past is needed for direction, I believe. I also believe it can be used to teach us gratitude. Let me give you an example. I do not remember very much of my childhood. What I do remember, for the most part, is not pleasant. Now, I could give you example after example of reasons why these unpleasant memories could hold me back or contribute to perceived negative parts of my personality, OR I can focus on the fact that even though these things happened and there was a significant fall out from it in my life, I am NOT defined by it or even held back by it now. I am using it to push me forward. Anyway, that is what I want my book to be about. I want it to be about how to push forward and upward and even reach outward through any negative circumstances that may come into life. I mean, shit, there is some horribly disgusting and foul stuff in this life. Things you see on tv or read online or in the newspaper sometimes make my skin crawl. I cannot even pretend that it doesn't hurt my soul to see or hear some of these things nor can I comprehend what it must be like to go through some of the things people go through. But, I can tell you, through my own personal hell, there has come light.
So, all that to say, yes, I am uneasy and unsettled. However, I do believe it is because amazing things are happening and coming together. I do not know what the future holds for me and my family but I hopeful that it is all we have dreamed and worked for.
This has been an incredibly random post and not very concise. So, if you made it to the end of this one...Congratulations Lol!!