Today was a good day! It wasn't an exceptionally special day really, it was just a good day! This morning I faced a fear I have been putting off for over 6 years. This morning I did EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing). EMDR is used to help quickly process traumatic events by bringing up a picture of the event and beliefs due to the event and dealing with them in a safe manner and then reprocessing your mind to deal with it more effectively. It kind of borders on hypnosis. I have been scared for so long to face the pictures and memories of my past. But today, I pushed through some pretty ugly stuff. And I challenged the belief of being "dirty" and "unworthy." I walked safely throught some very ugly memories and I SURVIVED!!! Yes, it made my chest tight and my stomach hurt for a little bit, but I faced it and survived it and that is HUGE!! After all of that we went to a family bar bq and I got to see family that I haven't seen in a long time. It was nice to sit in the yard and listen to everyone visit and enjoy each other's company. On the way home, one of Brennah's friends called to see if she could come play, which she did. Sarah and I got to spend some quality time together doing yard work. Now, this may not sound like a "good day" or fun, but it was. We worked hard together and enjoyed each other's company while working to take down some pesky weeds and vines in the yard. You know, a lot of people think being gay or a lesbian is so wrong or so disgusting and "why do I care who you sleep with," but for us, we are just like everyone else. We love spending time together and flirting and playing around with each other and just being in each other's company. It's not about who we sleep with, it is about a relationship that is full of love and acceptance for each other and wanting to see each other succeed and fulfill dreams and being there to support each other. Then this evening, after Brennah got home a friend came over and brought her son to play with Brennah. They played until dark and we were all outside until the kids were too tired to play anymore. We got to know this new friend better and enjoy someone who got to know us as people before judging based on the opinions of others. I could focus on the icky parts of today: facing ugly pictures of the past, not getting to spend the whole day with our daughter, having to do yard work, and hearing a new friend telling us all the reasons why she was told not to be friends with us, but instead, I am going to focus on: facing and accomplishing something that in the past paralyzed me with fear, getting some quality time with my beloved, seeing Brennah enjoy some good outside playtime with her friend and getting to know a great new friend. I choose the good....today was a good,...no, today was a GREAT DAY!!