November was an interesting month for me. I had been experiencing chest pain for a few months, especially when doing my spin class. I kept thinking to myself, there is no way this is anything serious because you workout and you are healthy....just keep pushing. Then I went to give blood and the nurse was concerned. She encouraged me to go to the E.R and I ignored her thinking I would just lay down and everything would be better. However, I just got worse. Throughout the month, I tried to remain positive that things were going to get better. I would get up and try to do things and then be so exhausted it would take me hours to recover. I would go teach at the gym and just have to sit while everyone else did the workouts. I began to feel my body moving around. I was noticing all of my hard work just melting away. This was causing me a lot of anxiety and fear. I again was trying to remind myself of all the positive things I have to be grateful for. I would list them in my head, write them down, and say them to other people. I think, however, what I needed to do, was pay attention. I think I was being told to pay attention.
So, now I am paying attention. This is what I've learned: 1. People do care, sometimes they just don't know what to do or how to help; 2. I need to be better about listening to my body; 3. It is good to push your body to new levels but not to the point of punishing it; 4. Your body knows what it needs; 5. Gratitude is a great way to change an anxious or fearful attitude 6. Never forget to appreciate those who truly and sincerely care about you 7. Don't be afraid to slow down and pay attention; 8. Confidence comes from within 9. Peace comes from within 10. Say thank you and I love you a lot.
I am grateful for November and that it taught me a lot about myself, my friends, my family and some great lessons for me to remember. I am grateful for gratitude, thanksgiving and most of all love. Love for my family, my friends, and a good reminder to love my whole self.